Rector's Rhetoric - January 2016
I’ve been thinking about resolutions lately and how hard it is to keep them. Some of what I’ve been contemplating doing are similar to what one would take on during Lent, but the problem is that you have to remember what you’re to do (or not supposed to do) for a whole year and not just forty days. I can’t even remember what I preached about last Sunday, let alone what I might have promised to do six months ago! Maybe that’s why only 8% of Americans actually keep their New Year’s resolutions. Even so, I’m going to promise to do something and I plan to put plenty of post-its in strategic places to keep me on the straight and narrow. Because I don’t want to fail by taking on more than I can handle, the only thing I want to focus on giving up this year is talking and thinking negatively. As difficult as both of those disciplines are, the talking part is probably easier than the thinking part. And it’s not just a matter of thinking negative thoughts about other people or the state of the world, but negative thoughts about myself—thoughts that have to do with my insecurity, my frustration, my impatience with myself. Perhaps rooted deep within my psyche is the notion that I don’t think I’m of much value, even when I’m resolutely convinced that God values and loves all of you. Anyone else ever feel that way? The thing is, I know better, and that’s a theology that contradicts everything Jesus ever said or did. So I’m going to keep looking at those post-its this year, reminding myself over and over again that we’re all worth it, and with that in mind, maybe I’ll be a part of the 8%.